..Why you don't
understand that, I want to talk to you. I don't want small talks, don't say
hello but tell me how was your morning in brief. I want a complete paragraph
about the time you spent at your cousin's wedding. Call me and tell me why you
believe in me. Tell me some unspoken things about us. Just go on for hours and
I promise you I will listen every word carefully and discuss every thing that
you are feeling. Just be with me every time saying random stuff .I don't want
to hear how much you love me but simply want that feelings in those unspoken
words.
..feeling so
exhausted ,no matter how much I sleep, I eat even I take a long walk,
something inside me seems to have given up. These sleepless night, these
thoughts , its awful. Even worse feeling is when I am trying to do some work at
afternoon but these thought are hitting me like a tornado , and how can I act
to be normal front of hundreds of people. Night are better. Far better.
..I tried to
explain but she is not listening, I know when she came back home she was
angry, I am her daughter , except me she don't have any close friend, she must
get out her anger on me. But I overreacted, I was worst and now I feel guilty. My
sorry won't matter. Will she understand my unspoken words that I love her and
she is the best mother of world no matter how much she scolds me.
..I met you today
,I wanted you to hug me like 15minutes straight, then you lean forward to me
and kiss me on my forehead, I don't want any assurance ,any promises, no eye
contact , just wrap me under your arms for decades.
..I hate this
changes in me. Hate being so sensitive. Can't bear the small change in the way
friends talk to me, look at me or message me. I just want you to remain same
in front of me. If you are feeling lazy , still I want you to text me. I think
about you whole night because you are not here to say goodnight. I want you to give
me the full attention. When you are
hanging out with your other friends I want you to miss me that time too and
between that time text me about how your friends are being boring and you are missing
me. I hate it when you are slowly started ignoring me. Can't you understand
this feelings of me ?
..its not that I am
complete and happy without you, but with you I feel so much better. Don't want
any promises. I want that you understand my mood swings while I am angry
without no reasons. I need you to understand that something happens and
sometimes things don't work out. Don’t tell me sweet words, but show me my
reflection when I am being a bitch . Then only I will understand how wrong I
was in the first place. I am able to live without you for days and won't loss
in darkness. But I want you to know that in spite of all this I desperately
want you by my side. I don't need you but I want that you will never left my
side. Relationship has changed over time but if we can make it work, then understand this unspoken feelings of my heart.
..now I know that
what I was up to was no longer exists. I hold you so tight that it started
giving me the pain. But I need to understand that you are no longer in my
life. Still I am waiting for the miracle. I hope you are happy there. Because
in my world there is no one except me trying to be happy without you.
..there was a time
when I was so exited for little things. I start dancing when I found 10 Rs.
note in my jeans. When I used to have dinner with my best friends on Sunday
.My heart start throbbing fast when I saw cute guy standing next to me. I was
so exited trying my new jeans. But as I grow up this little happiness faded
into memories. Unspoken memories . Because now I don’t have friends with whom I can
share this feelings. Few things always left unsaid while they must be out come
with the low .
-(Inspiration twitter)
- Kemil Ghoghari (KeMS)
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