Recently had patch
up with my old memory box, finally the strong will to walk through my own memory
lane won against my continuous resistance.
And there I saw picture of us, the one I love the most. We're laughing,
I'm holding the bills of our first 'after interview' Domino's party. Sitting
right beside you, making comic face as usual to spoil your selfie and yet 'out
of the blue' I snatched your phone and took this selfie without having idea
that this will inspire me to write this piece and on other side made me
emotional for our friendship. (You know that I don't cry :p) I never told you
this but memories of ours haunt me and ache me deep down where I just can't
reach to heal it.
In that picture
everything was at ease, we both were unknown to the storm which was yet to be
come and pull us in different direction. The storm wasn't going to remind us about our strong
bond neither the time long distance. Who knew that wondering in the native
wasn't going to happen now and then in this new city. That lazy summer
afternoon in your room completing F.R.I.E.N.D.S episode for nth number of time.
Mood freshener hot tea in even hotter
room of yours, where you've never let me open the windows just because of that
li'l lizard friend of yours. We never knew how hard it could be to stay apart
in the same new city.
It was so easy to
meet you when I could just walk across the street and be at your plot, giving
you just one ring to call you downstairs where we've spent hours of talking and
discussing things in that 'coming in 5 minute'
response to our mother. I miss these
stuffs when I'm exploring new cafes or new restaurant, I miss you but most of
all I miss being with you! That 'ice cream' corner of our, stalking guys and
talking every weird stuff to let our stress out, judging and insulting every
single person at 'Bortalav' just because we were together. This word Together
frightens me as I'm not able to be with you in the moment physically. It feels
like heavy load and TBH I can do anything to have you here, but I won't. And
that's where I fail. I won't do anything !!!
It makes me sad that
I can't give you shoulder when you're frustrated or often forgets to call you
to have that long chit chat. I know you've thousand things to tell me and
expecting a millions from me as well. That fact is I know everything but
lacking to do anything. It hurts me that I am not doing single thing to build
the bridge to disappear the tension or say distance.
But yes, dear long
distance bestie in the same new city whom I don’t see everyday I am collecting
myself to relive the moments we've once lived with every possible way!
Friendship between us will surely be something that people will get jealous of.
I am your devil who is trying to be honest!
