Unspoken Feelings ..(1)

                                ..Why you don't understand that, I want to talk to you. I don't want small talks, don't say hello but tell me how was your morning in brief. I want a complete paragraph about the time you spent at your cousin's wedding. Call me and tell me why you believe in me. Tell me some unspoken things about us. Just go on for hours and I promise you I will listen every word carefully and discuss every thing that you are feeling. Just be with me every time saying random stuff .I don't want to hear how much you love me but simply want that feelings in those unspoken words.

                                ..feeling so exhausted ,no matter how much I sleep, I eat even I take a long walk, something inside me seems to have given up. These sleepless night, these thoughts , its awful. Even worse feeling is when I am trying to do some work at afternoon but these thought are hitting me like a tornado , and how can I act to be normal front of hundreds of people. Night are better. Far better.

                                ..I tried to explain but she is not listening, I know when she came back home she was angry, I am her daughter , except me she don't have any close friend, she must get out her anger on me. But I overreacted, I was worst and now I feel guilty. My sorry won't matter. Will she understand my unspoken words that I love her and she is the best mother of world no matter how much she scolds me.

                              ..I met you today ,I wanted you to hug me like 15minutes straight, then you lean forward to me and kiss me on my forehead, I don't want any assurance ,any promises, no eye contact , just wrap me under your arms for decades.

                              ..I hate this changes in me. Hate being so sensitive. Can't bear the small change in the way friends talk to me, look at me or message me. I just want you to remain same in front of me. If you are feeling lazy , still I want you to text me. I think about you whole night because you are not here to say goodnight. I want you to give me the full attention.  When you are hanging out with your other friends I want you to miss me that time too and between that time text me about how your friends are being boring and you are missing me. I hate it when you are slowly started ignoring me. Can't you understand this feelings of me ?

                              ..its not that I am complete and happy without you, but with you I feel so much better. Don't want any promises. I want that you understand my mood swings while I am angry without no reasons. I need you to understand that something happens and sometimes things don't work out. Don’t tell me sweet words, but show me my reflection when I am being a bitch . Then only I will understand how wrong I was in the first place. I am able to live without you for days and won't loss in darkness. But I want you to know that in spite of all this I desperately want you by my side. I don't need you but I want that you will never left my side. Relationship has changed over time but if we can make it work, then understand this unspoken feelings of my heart.

                              ..now I know that what I was up to was no longer exists. I hold you so tight that it started giving me the pain. But I need to understand that you are no longer in my life. Still I am waiting for the miracle. I hope you are happy there. Because in my world there is no one except me trying to be happy without you.

                              ..there was a time when I was so exited for little things. I start dancing when I found 10 Rs. note in my jeans. When I used to have dinner with my best friends on Sunday .My heart start throbbing fast when I saw cute guy standing next to me. I was so exited trying my new jeans. But as I grow up this little happiness faded into memories. Unspoken memories . Because now I don’t have friends with whom I can share this feelings. Few things always left unsaid while they must be out come with the low .

          -(Inspiration twitter)

                                                                                                                             - Kemil Ghoghari (KeMS)

Friendship is ?

1.  Friendship is assurity to yourself that some one is always with you.
2.  Friendship is meeting you when you need them most.
3.  Friendship is the word "BESTY" comes in your mind often.
4.  Friendship is asking how you are & then pretending like you don't know the answer.
5. Friendship is love your best friend more than her/his family.
6. Friendship is laughing hard when you haven't told the jokes & give you sympathy when problem is too silly.
7. Friendship is extra chocolate on birthday specially for you.
8. Friendship is partiality among your friend circle.
9. Friendship is silence of hours spending on a school bench.
10. Friendship is your victory but my treat.
11. Friendship is knowing your all passwords.
12. Friendship is holding your hand when you are ready to fight for me.
13. Friendship is your one missed call and my long imagination of unsaid conversion.
14. Friendship is a long drive after completing the exam.
15. Friendship is crazy memories of alcoholic friends.
16. Friendship is a one day unforgettable picnic.
17. Friendship is waking up for whole night together like an owl for no reason.
18. Friendship is a road trip while playing Antakshari during the whole journey.
19. Friendship is showing a single new thing in front of friend and act like a king.
20. Friendship is showing off your attitude.
21. Friendship is whatever your name is but friends will find another one just to insult you badly.
22. Friendship is disturbing you when you are most busy.
23. Friendship is the relationship which never let u feel lonely.
24. Friendship is like wishing a photogenic memory of all moments.
25. Friendship is trust.
26. Friendship is telepathy of eyes.
27. Friendship is a warm hug from your friend at anytime, anywhere, anyhow you need.
28. Friendship is same chemical locha in heart twice a minute.
29. Friendship is always knowing what your friend is thinking dirty.
30. Friendship is the most comfortable silence.
31. Friendship is "Dost ka dushman apna dushman".
32. Friendship is long phone calls about nothing.
33. Friendship is nothing like everything.
34. Friendship is annoying each other and shamelessly enjoying it.
35. Friendship is ability to talk total nonsense for hours of day.
36. Friendship is never getting bored of each others silly stuff.
37. Friendship is a day & night chatting which is impossible for others to understand.
38. Friendship is something incredible between friends.
39. Friendship is to pick you right where you left.
40. Friendship is a free drink from your friend.
41. Friendship is a only ATM where you can ask for infinite money.
42. Friendship is like a sky, you can see the beginning but not the end.
43. Friendship is never judging each other.
44. Friendship is making laugh when one is senti.
45. Friendship is simplest recipe to cook together.
46. Friendship is late night crazy and somehow senti conversation.
47. Friendship is growing older at the same time.
48. Friendship is larger than life.
49. Friendship is a kiss on forehead.
50. Friendship is like a teddy bear.. soft, sweet and cute like you.
51. Friendship is playing any game for 10 minutes and preparing the set from last 2 hours.
52. Friendship is like a River.. always make it own way for flow.
53. Friendship is like a child caring for his favorite toy.
54. Friendship is like a reuniting again and again after silly fight.
55. Friendship is like a fridge cooler inside, hot outside.
56. Friendship is like a tv; nonstop entertainment 24*7.
57. Friendship is like a swing, sometimes up sometimes down.
58. Friendship is laugh on others together for no reason . 
59. Friendship is meeting after 20 years but still be the same.
60. Friendship is like old school always fun,cherish and cry.
61. Friendship is always unknown story for others.
62. Friendship is having six piece of pizza between ten friends.
63. Friendship is rain dance on "Londen thumkda".
64. Friendship is one scooty and four friends.
65. Friendship is helping friend to get his/her crush.
66. Friendship is day-dreaming.
67. Friendship is YOU..
68. Friendship is silence during morning walk.
69. Friendship is your photogenic memory blinks in my mind after every second.
70. Friendship is my first photo shoot with you.
71. Friendship is our long drive on bicycles.
72. Friendship is writing our names together on school's benches.
73. Friendship is calculating friendship percentage till its come to above 90.
74. Friendship is using your WiFi shamelessly.
75. Friendship is  taking friend's most weird photos to upload.
76. Friendship is whispering so gently that others can't understand.
77. Friendship is playing football over and over.
78. Friendship is missing you all the time.
79. Friendship is 1st step for a true Love ship.
80. Friendship is not to do something but to believe in someone.
81. Friendship is taking someone's depression and worries and waiting for her to become herself again.
82. Friendship is trust, care, love in short LIFE.
83. Friendship is ctr+c and then ctr+v in own Life.
84. Friendship is be with you when everything is against you.
85. Friendship is stealing your chocolates.
86. Friendship is reading your mind.
87. Friendship is creating the craziness breaking all bonds and boundaries.
88. Friendship is your competition and my nervousness.
89. Friendship is everything.
90. Friendship is knocking your door and ran away.
91. Friendship is shopping with you try the craziest things and then let you pay the bills.
92. Friendship is trying a new dish together and eat it from the same plate.
93. Friendship is eating ice-cream at the 11:15p.m just because its summer.
94. Friendship is giving you weird smiles when you are talking to your parents.
95. Friendship is calling you, waiting for your answer as long as I can.
96. Friendship is your pic in my favorite album.
97. Friendship is hitting you as hard as I can without any reason without any sorry.
98. Friendship is football practice with you in a muddy ground.
99. Friendship is two minute Maggie, "Khushiyo ki chaabi".
100. Friendship is an assigning a special ringtone for your cell number.
101. Friendship is behaving like a small kiddo all the time in front of you.
102. Friendship is bunking class together and then wondering what to do in free time.
103. Friendship is making constant mistakes and blaming you for the whole mess like an shameless idiot.
104. Friendship is a jealousy when you called someone else your best friend in front of me.
105. Friendship is a tension that what will after the study when we are depart from each other.
106. Friendship is distracting you when you suppose to do some important.
107. Friendship is teasing your crush by saying "Bhabhi n jiju" all over the time.
108. Friendship is always come to school/college without pen and loosing your pen too every time.
109. Friendship is wearing your clothes because its yours. Simple.
110. Friendship is  always reminds you before sleep that you are damn not alone.
111. Friendship is texting you after every five minutes.
112. Friendship is exchanging the feelings through letters in the world of E-mail.
113. Friendship is a promise.
114. Friendship is bringing two strangers together , to walk many a distance if miles together.
115. Friendship is a childish prayer for you.
116. Friendship is writing a letter even I will see you the next day.
117. Friendship is making a wish list together and trying to complete each others.
118. Friendship is keeping your secret.
119. Friendship is just to call you at a sudden just to remind you how special you are.
120. Friendship is telling you the truth in the most pleasant way.
121. Friendship is singing a song together no matter how worst it can be.
122. Friendship is the only relation where every chat is ended with a fighting still together the next day.
123. Friendship is hidden crush.
124. Friendship is pillow fight with you at 2:00 a.m.
125. Friendship is mutual understanding of "Angry mode activated".
126. Friendship is waiting as long as for an answer.
127. Friendship is forgetting your birthday and telling this shamelessly:"Oh it 3rd July ,sorry I forgot, so whats up?" ;)
128. Friendship is one final static constant variable in your life.
129.Friendship is same taste of reading.
130. Friendship is meeting the friend every time when you are in his/her city.
131. Friendship is promising to marry each other if no one is there in the end.
132. Friendship is knowing your all dirty shits.
133. Friendship is simply the Magic.
134. Friendship is more beautiful than true love.
135. Friendship is watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S together.
136. Friendship is calling you Harami, nalayak, nang, lallu all the time but respect you like anything.
137. Friendship is not that you learn in school, its about the time when a simple F.R.I.E.N.D.S and Harry Potter taught you all.
138. Friendship isn't about time, age, money its all about making your friend smile.
139. Friendship is when prayer and promise come together.
140. Friendship vanished all your bitter memory and fill your heart with happiness.
141. Friendship is playing truth and dare even you know all the secret.
142. Friendship is philosophy which you can only give to your friends.
143. Friendship is like sharing is caring.
144. Friendship is either eating Dahipuri or Breezer the very first time with your friend.
145. Friendship is always having a friend's back.
146. Friendship that will last a lifetime.
147. Friendship is sharing our life with others without any blood relation.
148. Friendship is three musketeers, the back backbenchers or the inseparable souls.
149. Friendship is journey.
150. Friendship is you and me.
                                                                          -Kemil Ghoghari(KeM.S)