D-day before Engineering Exam ..!!

Why we engineers study just the day before an exams?

Short answer: we are night watchers and insomniac.

Long answer:

After taking admission in engineering , All we think is "Didn't get my choice of college (branch too), I'll study like a hell and kick those asses" But we had no idea what the fuc*ing pipeline of engineer is ,all we wanted was to be Rancho, and end up being Chatur without any 'chamtkar'. We never have any idea before the d-day and all we do is :

- Gather the books rather say Xeroxes day before an exam

- Open the syllabus page and waste an hour long to find out these things:

1. Is this right Xeroxes?

2. Is this topic in our 'Exams'?

3. Is this chapter in our 'Exams'?

4. Is this subject in our 'Exams'?

- And that's it, it's break time, and break long last more than an hour, during breaks:

-Open Fb and comment on friend's post saying  "gadheda, tare vanchai gyu atle have gam ne hera na kar" 

-Chat with friend.

-Don't know what is it about the exam, that we eat more than we actually 'read'.

- Collect the last year asked questions and end up reading only those for an exam.

- Pray to God

" Iss saal pass karva do, agale semester se pakka padhunga !!"

Being in second year all we think is " Now we are seniors ", and we tend to discover some amazing just-for-an-engineering-stuff.

We discover sizzling website with high speed internet and new laptop ( you can't spot an engineer without his smart phone and laptop). During semester start downloading constant movies and watch 2-3 per day. And then super senior tells us "Bhai, the real stuff is in TV series, If you're not watching FRIENDS, GOT, Breaking bad, etc, you're wasting your life as an engineer"

This routine will lead us to the scenario where all we do is watch the bunch of episode instead of exam reading . After the ' watching-seasons session' we make our mood for some reading so we,

-gather at one's place

-We make 'room' for some reading

- Discuss the different topic

- One who knows little bit about the topic tells a story and that is a lot more entertaining than the engineering professors.

- Tea time ( Most engineers don't drink coffee else he/she is with their lover at CCD).

- Future plans mostly day dreaming

- Crush talks and teasing

- Reading for an hour and then,

- Raat ke 1 baje vali 'Meri Maggie' break.

- Starting from reference books we end up reading from notes and paper solution.

- and Pray to God,

" Iss saal pass karva do, agale semester se pakka padhunga !!"

Two years in engineering, and people think we are 'Professional' only we know what the hell is happening inside our head.

With one peg we start thinking that "Engineering is blissful paradise" . We discover the new essence of library as hangout place. We are obliged to give advice to juniors for their first university exam. Only we know that it's not the ragging . We go to late night parties and fast driving. One bike and 'triple safari' . Tech-fest is our 'Tomorrowland' before the exam. Inner voice says you can pass any subject. Becomes an expert on mugging & writing shit in the fuc*ing exams. We start our day with the as usual collecting IMPs, end up becoming avid

- smokers , Cigarettes that don't let us sleep.

- Important page numbers, to read for the last moments.

- A fuc*ing long explanation to topic and after 30 minutes we realize that topic isn’t there in the syllabus .

- We skipped almost all odd topics but beneath to have a fear, if it will be asked.

- And the last-night-tension-relief-long-calls.

-A repetitive 89 Signatures we do in a book which have kept to note down for Imp points to remember.

- After an hour reading , as usual we all are drizzly.

-We are the sherlocks of Ghajini, we don't have the ability to' remember' things , but we sure can 'memorize' things over night just for the special 'bloody paper'

After surviving three years through this hellish engineering, we are those devils who rule on the college and don't want to taste the reality, which ultimately sucks! We have no idea of subjects even after the three years, endless vivas, Big major project and tension of placement. Still all we think is " why the hell we're still single after fucking four years " .

-We sleep like the 'Baap' of Kumbhkaran and the bed becomes Extra Seductive day before an exam.

- Those of us who love their afternoon nap gets their hell when we ruin that for them!

-A day before exam...When From Outside we are like "Spartansssss.!!"

but from inside it's like "Fuc* this Shit outta hell..!!

-we becomes champions of various games during our Crucial day before an exam time.

-A novel/game that we kept aside just to get refreshment but we make a personal obligation to complete the book/game, doesn't matter if the subject stays untouched.

After all these foolishness we manage to get passed. We drink, we smoke, we watch porn and we make sarcasm through all, we have become writer, artist, singer , and lot more; we have big start up ideas in mind but we have one more thing , label of "Engineer" on head. Being in last year we never have attended the lectures but we are regular for college campus.

From facebook posts to whatsapp status to hike timeline to twitter tweeting, we have thrown out our anger of exams out. Things have changed, but the damn fuc*ing system seems to just stare at our face and show the label of "You're an Engineer".

                                                                        -Kemil Ghoghari (An Engineer, with the help of J.) 

Unlocked Treasure

" ...not just "

Its not just my desire
Its my dream comes true
Its not only about you
Its about me holding us !!

Its not just time we've passed
Its a moment we've lived
It not only about our kiss
Its the breath we've shared !!

Its not just about closed book
Its a chapter that I've turned
It not only about my poem
Its the love we've learned !!

"...everything changed "

You hurt me thousands time but I never think of that
I did that one time
And everything changed

You shout at me like you don't care
But I never think of that
I did that one time
And everything changed

You get high like there is no tomorrow
But I never think of that
I did that one time
And everything changed

You left me like you're not coming back
But I never think of that
I did that one time
And everything changed

I'll keep repeat these things and I know you'll think of that
Don't do this again
Else nothing will be the same ..!!

"..don't go"

Don't go for a while
As I'm still in love with you
Can't you stay for a while
As I'm mad for you

Don't treat me like this
As I still believe in you
Can't you stay for a while
As I'm still in love with you 

Don't look at me like this
As I still care for you
Can't you stay for a while
As I'm still in love with you 

Don't laugh at me like this
As I still smile for you
Can't you stay for a while
As I'm still in love with you 

Don't leave me like this
As I still here for you
Can't you stay for a while
As I'm still in love with you 

Don't fake a smile like this
As I still know you
Can't you stay for a while
As I 'm still in love with you 

Don't cry for me
As you still in love with me
Can't we stay together forever
As I'm still in love with you..!!

"...fear "

I fear from the people I love
their smile , love and fear of hate
But I know I am not alone
 

I fear from the dreams I see
the reality, night and fear of breaking
But I know I am a dreamer

I fear from the thoughts I think
the dark, past and fear of negativity
but I know I am not a psycho

I fear from the Life I live
the hard, real and fear of failing
but I know I do exist ..!! 

"...memories "

memories exist in my treasure
locked hard
impossible to find
from hate to divine

memories exist in my thoughts
darkened sight
embarrassed to hide
from present to past

memories exist in my dreams
at half past two
imagined to fly
from night to sunrise

memories exist in my life
beating fast
remembered to smile
from start to live life..!!

"...where is "

And the night starts glowing

'Cz of the stars
Where is the moon
Where is the moonlight

And the baby starts dreaming
'Cz of the book
Where is the magic
Where is the magical nights  

"...if "

If I pray,

 you're the blessings
If I'm happy, 

you're the smile
If I sing,

you're the song
If I'm star, 

you're the stardom..!!

                                                                        -Kemil Ghoghari
 

Things that matter (may be..)

             ...people never understand what we try to make them understand, so it is far better that we keep mum . But sometimes we can't. We wanna scream in this night. We wanna laugh hard on the day in middle of our office work. But we are scared about the way people would look at us. Is it wrong that we are girls? We can always see those watchful eyes looking at us, as if judging us and our behavior every single moment. They underestimate us and our work just because we are girls. Why this matter so much? Matters like this always freaks us out.

Whenever there is a long journey , we- the girls have to hold the pee, just because there is no proper toilet on the way. And peeing into the bush near roadside at the night is not the proper/preferable way, but boys don’t  face this problems. But anyway this doesn't matter to you.

Even if in a sunny hot day, we can't wear what we want to. Well, sometimes it's irrelevant what kind of day it is, we can't wear what we want to. End of discussion. We will always be called upon by people, and told that this is not the proper way to dress. A sleeveless lose tee and pajama is only for the boys. Even if we wear tight dress , they have problem in that too. But boys don’t have to face these problems. They can roam around in their shorts being top less. But this doesn’t matter to you. I guess.

A boy can have late nights with friends, or even the night outs. But what happen if we want to go late at night for clubbing, for fast ride, for ice cream at 3 in the morning ? Sometimes, we may wonder whether we will do be able to do such things if given the freedom to us, or will the fear stop us from living our freedom. The fear, of those boys who harass us at club , fear to go around for long ride, while looking in the mirror and wondering whether there is a bike behind us.Even as independent girls, we must depend on good guys. That please let us have our fun. But this doesn’t matter to you.

When we-the girls, want to pursue higher studies in a place away from home, and our parents have to think about every little details, from the college to hostel, from the area to food. Because that particular city had been in the news recently, being under the headline as 'unsafe for women.' But there is never such tagline for the boys. That’s why this doesn’t matter.

Have you seen any girl eating alone in a restaurant or enjoying the movie alone in the theater? Even if we want to go alone, we have to mention that : ! "Seat for a girl", and then the ticket  booking clerk manage to give us the seat. Far from boys. But that’s not enough because even when sitting in the dark, we are always afraid of something even darker.

When we plan for the holiday trip, we have to double check for safety. All the male-friends can do the room sharing but we have to book separate room with extra money for safety. Still the night are sleepless being alone in the room. But you can roam around without any fear . But this doesn’t matter to you.

When people assume that girls, have no ambition, apart from finding the good husband, with handsome salary. And parents also thinks the same for their so called darling princesses . But they forget that not only does a girl have dreams, but also the passion and capabilities to fulfill those dreams. They also wanna live the carefree life. They may be independent, but they are still caged inside the rigid nature of the society.They wish they can get out of this cage, to be free in the sky. So they can go wherever the wind and their desire take them. to live their own dreams.

All things don’t matter for the boys now but when you realize that the Gender Equality is your issue, too. It is when you become a father of the daughter that these things will become a crucial the important matter for you. For only then will you understand that one of the best gifts you can ever give to your daughter, is the ability for her to live her life on her own standards.

                                                                                          -Kemil Ghoghari (With the help of J.)

Collection (Steps toward destroying)

Some of my GAZALS and POEMS collection ..

1) તને કહ્યા વગર સામુ જોયા કરવાનું સારું લાગે છે ,
    તું ના હો ત્યારે પણ તને વિચારતા રહેવું સારું લાગે છે..
    કરે છે તું પણ આ જ, ગમું છું હું પણ તને,
    એટલે જ મારી રચના માં તારા વિશે લખતા રહેવું સારું લાગે છે..
    આંખ બંધ કરી તારી કલ્પના કરવાનું સારું લાગે છે ,
    એટલે જ દરેક વસ્તુ ને તારી સાથે સાંકળતા રહેવાનું સારું લાગે છે..
    મારી દરેક ધડકન નો શ્વાસ તારાથી જ ચાલે છે,
    એટલે જ દરેક ક્ષણે તને યાદ કરતા રહેવું સારું લાગે છે .!

2)  મેઘધનુષી રંગો તે ના પૂર્યા ના મેં પૂર્યા ,
     બસ ખાલી પછી ના ઘસરકા આમ તેમ માર્યા કર્યા..
     એવા તે શું કામ રહ્યા કે.
     બસ ઉદાસી ના જામ પીધા કર્યા..
     તું ડૂબતી ચાલી મારા અંતર માં ,
     તે પ્રેમગીત અમને ગાતા કર્યા..
     ઉઘડ્યા ના દ્વાર કદીયે તારા મનમાં ,
     તોય થડકારા મન માં વાગ્યા કર્યા..
      હાસ્ય આવું કૈક ઝડપાયું મારા નયનો માં ,
     ને ધબકારા મારા બસ વધતા ચાલ્યા ..!

3)   સવારનું પેહલું કિરણ આંખ પર પડ્યું ,
       મારા અંધારા સપના નો લય તોડવો પડ્યો ,
                       ને મારું મન ખાતું થય ગયું  ..
       કડકડતી ઠંડી માં વહેલા ઉઠવું પડ્યું ,
       સવારના પહોરમાં દુધવાળા ની બુમ સંભાળવી પડી ,
                        ને મારું મન ખાતું થય ગયું  ..
       આળસ મરડીને , ઓશિકા ને ગળે વળગાડીને ,
       મમ્મી નો મીઠો અવાજ સાંભળી ઉઠવું પડ્યું ,
                        ને મારું મન ખાતું થય ગયું  ..
       અલાહ ની નમાઝ કાન માં ગુંજી ઉઠી , 
       દિલ માં તે સંભાળવાની મીઠી આસ પ્રગટી ઉઠી ,
       પણ સાયકલ નો ખટરાગ અને સૂર્ય નો ઝગમગાટ સ્પર્શવો પડ્યો ,
                        ને મારું મન ખાતું થય ગયું  ..
       સપના નો સાગર હિલ્લોળા લેતો હતો,
        અને અચાનક આંખ માંથી આંસુ સારી પડ્યું ,
                       ને મારું મન ખાતું થય ગયું  ..


4)     આભે ખોલી આંખ ,
         વાદળો જતા રહ્યા દુર ,
          શું સપનું હતું એ ?

         ધરતી અ કર્યો ઝાકળ નો સ્પર્શ ,
          ક્ષિતિજ જતી રહી દુર ,
          શું સપનું હતું એ ?

           પાને રંગ્યું પોતાને પીળાશ થી ,
           વસંત જતી રહી દુર ,
            શું સપનું હતું એ ?

           કર્યો કોઈં પ્રેમ નો એકરાર ,
            પ્રેમ જતો રહ્યો દુર ,
          શું સપનું હતું એ ?

5)       કઈ કેટલાય મન ના virus ભૂસ્યા ,
          તોય તારો અ softtouch યાદ આવ્યો। .
           આંખો ની screen કેટલીય વાર turn off કરી ,
            તોય તારો અ pic યાદ આવ્યો। .
           જેટલી વાર દિલ ની drive મેં format કરી ,
           તોય તું પાછો download થય યાદ આવ્યો।.
          delete કર્યું તારું નામ કેટલીય વાર મન માંથી ,
          તોય તારા નામ ની error આવતા તું યાદ આવ્યો। .
           ના કરી શકી આપની relationship  restart ,
           તોય જયારે જયારે આંસુ ઓં નું output  વધ્યું ,
                                      ત્યારે ત્યારે યાદ આવ્યો। ..
                                                                                       - Kemil Ghoghari

Some of the two liners ...

કોઈ ની જાન બચાવવા બેઠી છું ,
બ્લેડ ની ધાર કાઢવા બેથી છું। .

 બુલંદી પર પણ બહુ ભીડ લાગેલી છે ,
રોજ કેટલાય 'અશ્ક' સારી પડે છે। .

તારા અસ્તિત્વ ની સાબિતી આપવી પડશે ,
હવે તો સપના પણ એ હકીકત થી દુર ભાગે છે। .

તારી આંખો એ એવો નશો ચડાવી દીધો ,
હવે તો કસુંબો પણ ફિક્કો લાગે છે। .

એકમાત્ર તને પ્રેમ કરવા બેઠા છીએ ,
કાગળ પર અક્ષર અક્ષર રમવા બેઠા છીએ। .
                                                                                           - Kemil Ghoghari 

Unspoken Feelings ..(1)

                                ..Why you don't understand that, I want to talk to you. I don't want small talks, don't say hello but tell me how was your morning in brief. I want a complete paragraph about the time you spent at your cousin's wedding. Call me and tell me why you believe in me. Tell me some unspoken things about us. Just go on for hours and I promise you I will listen every word carefully and discuss every thing that you are feeling. Just be with me every time saying random stuff .I don't want to hear how much you love me but simply want that feelings in those unspoken words.

                                ..feeling so exhausted ,no matter how much I sleep, I eat even I take a long walk, something inside me seems to have given up. These sleepless night, these thoughts , its awful. Even worse feeling is when I am trying to do some work at afternoon but these thought are hitting me like a tornado , and how can I act to be normal front of hundreds of people. Night are better. Far better.

                                ..I tried to explain but she is not listening, I know when she came back home she was angry, I am her daughter , except me she don't have any close friend, she must get out her anger on me. But I overreacted, I was worst and now I feel guilty. My sorry won't matter. Will she understand my unspoken words that I love her and she is the best mother of world no matter how much she scolds me.

                              ..I met you today ,I wanted you to hug me like 15minutes straight, then you lean forward to me and kiss me on my forehead, I don't want any assurance ,any promises, no eye contact , just wrap me under your arms for decades.

                              ..I hate this changes in me. Hate being so sensitive. Can't bear the small change in the way friends talk to me, look at me or message me. I just want you to remain same in front of me. If you are feeling lazy , still I want you to text me. I think about you whole night because you are not here to say goodnight. I want you to give me the full attention.  When you are hanging out with your other friends I want you to miss me that time too and between that time text me about how your friends are being boring and you are missing me. I hate it when you are slowly started ignoring me. Can't you understand this feelings of me ?

                              ..its not that I am complete and happy without you, but with you I feel so much better. Don't want any promises. I want that you understand my mood swings while I am angry without no reasons. I need you to understand that something happens and sometimes things don't work out. Don’t tell me sweet words, but show me my reflection when I am being a bitch . Then only I will understand how wrong I was in the first place. I am able to live without you for days and won't loss in darkness. But I want you to know that in spite of all this I desperately want you by my side. I don't need you but I want that you will never left my side. Relationship has changed over time but if we can make it work, then understand this unspoken feelings of my heart.

                              ..now I know that what I was up to was no longer exists. I hold you so tight that it started giving me the pain. But I need to understand that you are no longer in my life. Still I am waiting for the miracle. I hope you are happy there. Because in my world there is no one except me trying to be happy without you.

                              ..there was a time when I was so exited for little things. I start dancing when I found 10 Rs. note in my jeans. When I used to have dinner with my best friends on Sunday .My heart start throbbing fast when I saw cute guy standing next to me. I was so exited trying my new jeans. But as I grow up this little happiness faded into memories. Unspoken memories . Because now I don’t have friends with whom I can share this feelings. Few things always left unsaid while they must be out come with the low .

          -(Inspiration twitter)

                                                                                                                             - Kemil Ghoghari (KeMS)

Friendship is ?

1.  Friendship is assurity to yourself that some one is always with you.
2.  Friendship is meeting you when you need them most.
3.  Friendship is the word "BESTY" comes in your mind often.
4.  Friendship is asking how you are & then pretending like you don't know the answer.
5. Friendship is love your best friend more than her/his family.
6. Friendship is laughing hard when you haven't told the jokes & give you sympathy when problem is too silly.
7. Friendship is extra chocolate on birthday specially for you.
8. Friendship is partiality among your friend circle.
9. Friendship is silence of hours spending on a school bench.
10. Friendship is your victory but my treat.
11. Friendship is knowing your all passwords.
12. Friendship is holding your hand when you are ready to fight for me.
13. Friendship is your one missed call and my long imagination of unsaid conversion.
14. Friendship is a long drive after completing the exam.
15. Friendship is crazy memories of alcoholic friends.
16. Friendship is a one day unforgettable picnic.
17. Friendship is waking up for whole night together like an owl for no reason.
18. Friendship is a road trip while playing Antakshari during the whole journey.
19. Friendship is showing a single new thing in front of friend and act like a king.
20. Friendship is showing off your attitude.
21. Friendship is whatever your name is but friends will find another one just to insult you badly.
22. Friendship is disturbing you when you are most busy.
23. Friendship is the relationship which never let u feel lonely.
24. Friendship is like wishing a photogenic memory of all moments.
25. Friendship is trust.
26. Friendship is telepathy of eyes.
27. Friendship is a warm hug from your friend at anytime, anywhere, anyhow you need.
28. Friendship is same chemical locha in heart twice a minute.
29. Friendship is always knowing what your friend is thinking dirty.
30. Friendship is the most comfortable silence.
31. Friendship is "Dost ka dushman apna dushman".
32. Friendship is long phone calls about nothing.
33. Friendship is nothing like everything.
34. Friendship is annoying each other and shamelessly enjoying it.
35. Friendship is ability to talk total nonsense for hours of day.
36. Friendship is never getting bored of each others silly stuff.
37. Friendship is a day & night chatting which is impossible for others to understand.
38. Friendship is something incredible between friends.
39. Friendship is to pick you right where you left.
40. Friendship is a free drink from your friend.
41. Friendship is a only ATM where you can ask for infinite money.
42. Friendship is like a sky, you can see the beginning but not the end.
43. Friendship is never judging each other.
44. Friendship is making laugh when one is senti.
45. Friendship is simplest recipe to cook together.
46. Friendship is late night crazy and somehow senti conversation.
47. Friendship is growing older at the same time.
48. Friendship is larger than life.
49. Friendship is a kiss on forehead.
50. Friendship is like a teddy bear.. soft, sweet and cute like you.
51. Friendship is playing any game for 10 minutes and preparing the set from last 2 hours.
52. Friendship is like a River.. always make it own way for flow.
53. Friendship is like a child caring for his favorite toy.
54. Friendship is like a reuniting again and again after silly fight.
55. Friendship is like a fridge cooler inside, hot outside.
56. Friendship is like a tv; nonstop entertainment 24*7.
57. Friendship is like a swing, sometimes up sometimes down.
58. Friendship is laugh on others together for no reason . 
59. Friendship is meeting after 20 years but still be the same.
60. Friendship is like old school always fun,cherish and cry.
61. Friendship is always unknown story for others.
62. Friendship is having six piece of pizza between ten friends.
63. Friendship is rain dance on "Londen thumkda".
64. Friendship is one scooty and four friends.
65. Friendship is helping friend to get his/her crush.
66. Friendship is day-dreaming.
67. Friendship is YOU..
68. Friendship is silence during morning walk.
69. Friendship is your photogenic memory blinks in my mind after every second.
70. Friendship is my first photo shoot with you.
71. Friendship is our long drive on bicycles.
72. Friendship is writing our names together on school's benches.
73. Friendship is calculating friendship percentage till its come to above 90.
74. Friendship is using your WiFi shamelessly.
75. Friendship is  taking friend's most weird photos to upload.
76. Friendship is whispering so gently that others can't understand.
77. Friendship is playing football over and over.
78. Friendship is missing you all the time.
79. Friendship is 1st step for a true Love ship.
80. Friendship is not to do something but to believe in someone.
81. Friendship is taking someone's depression and worries and waiting for her to become herself again.
82. Friendship is trust, care, love in short LIFE.
83. Friendship is ctr+c and then ctr+v in own Life.
84. Friendship is be with you when everything is against you.
85. Friendship is stealing your chocolates.
86. Friendship is reading your mind.
87. Friendship is creating the craziness breaking all bonds and boundaries.
88. Friendship is your competition and my nervousness.
89. Friendship is everything.
90. Friendship is knocking your door and ran away.
91. Friendship is shopping with you try the craziest things and then let you pay the bills.
92. Friendship is trying a new dish together and eat it from the same plate.
93. Friendship is eating ice-cream at the 11:15p.m just because its summer.
94. Friendship is giving you weird smiles when you are talking to your parents.
95. Friendship is calling you, waiting for your answer as long as I can.
96. Friendship is your pic in my favorite album.
97. Friendship is hitting you as hard as I can without any reason without any sorry.
98. Friendship is football practice with you in a muddy ground.
99. Friendship is two minute Maggie, "Khushiyo ki chaabi".
100. Friendship is an assigning a special ringtone for your cell number.
101. Friendship is behaving like a small kiddo all the time in front of you.
102. Friendship is bunking class together and then wondering what to do in free time.
103. Friendship is making constant mistakes and blaming you for the whole mess like an shameless idiot.
104. Friendship is a jealousy when you called someone else your best friend in front of me.
105. Friendship is a tension that what will after the study when we are depart from each other.
106. Friendship is distracting you when you suppose to do some important.
107. Friendship is teasing your crush by saying "Bhabhi n jiju" all over the time.
108. Friendship is always come to school/college without pen and loosing your pen too every time.
109. Friendship is wearing your clothes because its yours. Simple.
110. Friendship is  always reminds you before sleep that you are damn not alone.
111. Friendship is texting you after every five minutes.
112. Friendship is exchanging the feelings through letters in the world of E-mail.
113. Friendship is a promise.
114. Friendship is bringing two strangers together , to walk many a distance if miles together.
115. Friendship is a childish prayer for you.
116. Friendship is writing a letter even I will see you the next day.
117. Friendship is making a wish list together and trying to complete each others.
118. Friendship is keeping your secret.
119. Friendship is just to call you at a sudden just to remind you how special you are.
120. Friendship is telling you the truth in the most pleasant way.
121. Friendship is singing a song together no matter how worst it can be.
122. Friendship is the only relation where every chat is ended with a fighting still together the next day.
123. Friendship is hidden crush.
124. Friendship is pillow fight with you at 2:00 a.m.
125. Friendship is mutual understanding of "Angry mode activated".
126. Friendship is waiting as long as for an answer.
127. Friendship is forgetting your birthday and telling this shamelessly:"Oh it 3rd July ,sorry I forgot, so whats up?" ;)
128. Friendship is one final static constant variable in your life.
129.Friendship is same taste of reading.
130. Friendship is meeting the friend every time when you are in his/her city.
131. Friendship is promising to marry each other if no one is there in the end.
132. Friendship is knowing your all dirty shits.
133. Friendship is simply the Magic.
134. Friendship is more beautiful than true love.
135. Friendship is watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S together.
136. Friendship is calling you Harami, nalayak, nang, lallu all the time but respect you like anything.
137. Friendship is not that you learn in school, its about the time when a simple F.R.I.E.N.D.S and Harry Potter taught you all.
138. Friendship isn't about time, age, money its all about making your friend smile.
139. Friendship is when prayer and promise come together.
140. Friendship vanished all your bitter memory and fill your heart with happiness.
141. Friendship is playing truth and dare even you know all the secret.
142. Friendship is philosophy which you can only give to your friends.
143. Friendship is like sharing is caring.
144. Friendship is either eating Dahipuri or Breezer the very first time with your friend.
145. Friendship is always having a friend's back.
146. Friendship that will last a lifetime.
147. Friendship is sharing our life with others without any blood relation.
148. Friendship is three musketeers, the back backbenchers or the inseparable souls.
149. Friendship is journey.
150. Friendship is you and me.
                                                                          -Kemil Ghoghari(KeM.S)

A Girl With Camera (2)

                             Everybody ask me why this  ? As I am in the final year of graduation in Engineering. Sometime something happens for the reason and in my case definitely three reasons. Unlike my many other friends I have a history that I can write, why I choose this line .

                             First one is when I was in 3rd or 4th grade , and there were no phones in my house, father is allergenic to mobiles and land-line so no direct or indirect contact with the "phones". So mobile phones were great curiosity things for me in those days. Once my cousin came to home and she was having a "Mobile Phone" and for me its like "Wow thing" . But I don't have permission to touch it. As the people at home believe that I am a kid and I can't operate it. It’s a usual scenario I guess at every one's home. So she came and I was waiting for a chance to touch that wow factor. But like now she was taking her phone where ever she went. At last she went to loo and I grabbed the phone. Was so amaze seeing that "wow thing" which displays the time and make amazing tunes while calling. That was all I know, that time(of course that time is now passed). So I pressed the button and the screen lights on . I was scared that, what the hell I did. (I was very coward that time, confessing ;) ). And she came, she saw flashing light from her phone and then she laughed on me(I was like how the hell she can laugh on me :@). She told why I am so scared its just a light. And then front of all family member she teased me with all these. Someone told that this is Kemil who don't know how to operate the phones and wants to become an engineer. (Yes everybody know about me and my dream of becoming Computer Engineer so they made fun of me).

                             Now lets do some more travel in past. I was in 1st grade. And there was a assembly , teachers were asking students what they want to become in future. My all friends told that they will become a teacher like them. One of the friend told that he wants to become a thief(well come on friends we were in 1st grade). My turn came and I said "Computer Engineer". All the teachers were looking at me. One of them said :"Do you know what does that mean ?" As I said I was very shy and pessimist so looked down and became silent. Students around me made fun  of me.  I said : " At home me and father watching Discovery and Net Geo all the time, there they used to tell viewers about Engineering. So the people who built the machines are called engineers. And they also said on TV that computers will change the whole world in future decade so I want to became Computer engineer." All of them were still laughing on me. Because none of us having any direct contacts with computers and still I was saying those things.

On the result day my class teacher wrote that Kemil wants to become Computer Engineer and my blessing are with her always in my report card. So the journey starts this way.

                             Now fast forward to grade 7th. We were in computer lab and I was continuously making some errors in practical. Teacher came to me and told me to get out from the class. I was shocked and then  she started telling me how dumb I am in computer and computers are not for the students like me. One of the classmate announced that I want to become the computer  engineer and then all started laughing. Teacher was like "tum kya computer engineer banogi, tumhe to  thik se start karna bhi nahi aata". That day I was punished for whole lecture and outside the class I decided my goal. I was more firm about what I want.

                             So now I am in last year of Computer engineering. Unlike others this is my dream, my attitude to be here. This is not the 'option'. This is my 'choice'. And I am happy because this choice changed almost everything.

                             Last year I visited my school and the teacher who wrote that what I want to become in my result card was crying- hugging me. She was happy and proud on me. The teacher who punished me was happy that I broke all of her judgments  and achieved the goal rather than disturbing myself through changing the path. And the cousin who never let me touch her phone gave her phone to me to install my small application.

                             Here I am with my journey , journey to my goal, journey of my knowledge toward the technology, journey to achieve this attitude, journey to become a geek from a pessimist .

I am not "The Intelligent Programmer " yet, but I am going :)

Because journey of life is simply interesting!

                                                                                                                                  -Kemil Ghoghari (KeMS)

Make a Choice to take a Chance or your life will never Change..!!

Choices, Chances, Changes..!!
                        One right choice to grab the right chance will change your life. It’s a psychologically proven thing. What do you think? Those people who are goofing  around us , how many chances do they have to change our lives? We gave the choice to only those who have chance to come close to us, to understand us, to love us. Life is to love someone and to be loved by someone, Love is usually not a choice because it is hard to stop thinking about the one you love, Only they can change us.. Either I can say only they have chances to bring changes in us for them only.

But Question is does Choices, Chances exist  to Change one's life?

                        It’s always  about the choice, it really does matters. You can be whatever you want to be or you can be that lazy lad. You can go to jog early morning or you can be a sleepy jackass. Actually the choice is that super human power that the almighty God gave us only, you see or pretend not to see being blindfolded by society that's the change.

                         You are what you are, its your choice to grab the chance to change your life. You should put your dreams on fire!! We don’t have choice what our name will be when we are born, but we have power of choice to change our life by deciding what will be in front of our name.

                          It’s all about the choices and chances. So, if someone is grown-up enough to make a wrong choice, chances are less that one can change.Moreover, once a wrong choice is forgiven , doing it the next time is easier, less frightening, and guilt-free.

                     We have choice between ,
                                                      morning breakfast or late night dinner,
                                                       taking it with family or just eating it alone,
                                                      wearing a nice pair of shoes or look like a dumb clown,
                                                       having a daily hike chat or hug that person in real,
                                                       being a different person or being a indifferent jackass,
                                                       taking the right chance or giving the fu** to the life.

                                   So people have choices, but that is also true that everything does not spring from choice not so easily. It maybe complicated for someone, or maybe it is much simpler for others due to the backdrop of their lives. Black & White matters always!

                                  Choices that would make us all unique , successful , special, happy and loved. Some choices that make our stride difficult in others eyes but a liberating experience for us (sometimes for them too ). And happiness is the result of how do you choose to react to a situation or to change that situation. Grab the chance to be happy (Grappyness), choosing a good attitude in the midst of sorrow and change it into the Grappyness..!!

                                  It’s our choice, to decide which path we want to take. You are here because that choice made all the differences.

                                 I am enjoying all these experiences and the subsequent experiences it is leading to.Where am I going? I don't know, but I am going :)
Because journey of life is simply interesting!

                                                                                                                    -Kemil Ghoghari (KeM.S)

I solemnly swear, I am up to no good..!!

The boy ,who lived ->>  Harry Potter Always..  

                 Well my fellows are Always teasing me all the time about this, about this annoying kid (for them only obvious, for me he is my Prince of Magical hood ). But what's wrong that I am still affected with the Harry Potter charm rather I should say J.K.Rowling's writing at the age of 20..!!! You can't understand a mythology behind every word of Potter's book.. Because you have never seen a girl who was crying hard on Hedwig's (Harry's owl) death.. And yelling loudly in the middle of the theater when Snape ( Professor Snape) says "Always" and the secret of  "Half blood prince" is revealed !! I know I will never ever play Quidditch (I mean may be in my thoughts, yeah I usually do this ;) )but what's wrong to feel that winning match night charm while you were suppose to read it first time at the night in the train.. For me Harry's first winning match in Sorcerer's  stone is more happier than India's winning world cup in 2011..!!

                Lots of people hate this book, but I love it to the death. Its almost impossible for me to digest death of  Mad-eye Moody , Fred Weasley,  Snape and but obvious  Dumbledore. But I have to accept it.

                This will always be indelibly etched in the minds of a true Harry Potter fan. But, the fact remains that Weasley's were witty, charming and extremely likeable. Harry Potter books wouldn't have been as interesting without them. The death of Fred at the end of the last book was so hard for me  among the all . It was like an end of a funniest magic era. Rowling still says that after the death of Fred, George was never able to produce the Patronus. This suggests how popular the twins duo was. They were amazing Always..!!This is the writing of J.K.Rowling so what's wrong In this??

                Even I am still so scared while I heard the screams of Hermione when she was being harassed by Bellatrix ,while reading the book.(Movie was more scarier than the book). I mean you will never understand this pain because you are never ever lived in this magic hood and if you do understand the pain you will never forgive J.K.Rowling for not writing more Potter stories. Please just "Pottermore".

                I have watched all these movies thousands of time and still whenever it is telecast on TV I just speechlessly sat next to TV with my mouth open..!! So what's wrong in that man.!! Many of you were growing up with lots of cartoon's once you were affected with the favorite character same as I. I don't have crush on Harry but damn yeah I love the Harry Potter books of 7 series.

                J.K.Rowling  helped to create a world that for over a decade readers and viewers fell in love with, wizards and witches . Roller coaster ride in the world of wizards that you had never imagined even in the happiest dream.

                This is the power of her writing through that he managed children to read this thick Potter books. Harry Potter books are most selling books after Bible in the world. One of the touching lines by Queen Rowling is:

                     ( "But this is touching, Severus," said Dumbledore seriously. "Have you grown to care for the boy, after all?"

"For him?" shouted Snape. "Expecto Patronum!"

From the tip of his wand burst the silver doe. She landed on the office floor, bounded once across the office, and soared out of the window. Dumbledore watched her fly away, and as her silvery glow faded he turned back to Snape, and his eyes were full of tears.

"After all this time?"

"Always," said Snape.)

                 This things can only understand  by the people who is deeply in love with Harry Potter.

Everyday when I read the paper in the morning I sigh that I don't have "Daily Prophet".

I don’t know what my Patronus is,

I don’t know what I'd see in the mirror of Erised,

I don’t know what my Boggart would be.

                 This shows me how the story can change your life rather I should say turned your life magically awesome.

                  Now when my friends called me and told that "Your 'Hariyo' on WB , check it out..!!" well yeah I can proudly say that I am still affected with the Harry Potter at the age of 20.. Yeah so what's wrong ? They are annoyed by me because my all conversations include Harry Potter reference. 

                  I tried all my friends to at least watch HP once but they will never, but hell yeah they are keep teasing me with Harry!! Hahaha yeah I am angry I am burst out on that people who are still thinking that HP is a waste of time and they can't see this movies at this age.. Holy crap..!!! I am still waiting for my Hogwarts's letter  and when I got my college acceptance letter I tried to imagine it as that Hogwart's letter so what's wrong??!!!

                  For me Harry Potter means, Childhood full of magical stories idolizing Harry, teenage is understanding Luna and adulthood is realizing there's a Voldemort in each of us.

                   Thank you J.K.Rowling for making my childhood special and magical, thank you for giving me the most amazing family anyone could ever have.

Some of my Harry Potter fantasy that will never gonna be true. -_-

 >>>>>>

You say Coca Cola, I say BUTTER BEER.

You say Car, I say BROOMSTICK.

You say Dog, I say PADFOOT.

You say Home, I say HOGWARTS.

You say Stick, I say WAND.

You say Nerd, I say HERMIONE.

You say Prison, I say AZKABAN.

You say Times Of India, I say DAILY PROPHET.

You say Red, I say WEASLEY.

You say Prince, I say Always HALF BLOOD PRINCE.

You say Childhood, I say HARRY POTTER.

                                                                                                                                 -Kemil Ghoghari (Potterhead Always)

Friendship what's that ???

Friendship is YOU.
Friendship is staring at your friend's face for solution of your problem.
Friendship is assurity to yourself that some one is always with you.
Friendship is when your friend knows the real meaning of "Always".
Friendship is meeting you when you need them most.
Friendship is love your best friend more than her family.
Friendship is silence of hours spending at one's home.
Friendship is your one missed call and my long imagination of unsaid conversion.
Friendship is telepathy of eyes.
Friendship is a long drive on Access while we are supposed to go for a walk.
Friendship is waking up for whole night together like an owl for no reason.
Friendship is planning the road trip.
Friendship is showing off your attitude.
Friendship is a strong belief that exams are going best just because of your best wishes.
Friendship is like one's heart and another's  heartbeats.
Friendship is replying as fast as to your single boring message.
Friendship is a warm hug from your friend at anytime, anywhere, anyhow you need.
Friendship is a kiss on forehead.
Friendship is "dreams on fire, higher and high"
Friendship is start writing the quotes for you.
 Friendship is "a jaane chhe tu, k karvano shu, hu tara vina.. Bey yaar"
Friendship is going back home together in same rickshaw.
Friendship is no need of explanation of your worst behavior.
Friendship is always knowing what your friend is thinking.
Friendship is the most comfortable silence.
Friendship is sharing of everything and act like a only therapist.
Friendship is like a reuniting again and again after silly fight.
Friendship is a day & night chatting which is impossible for others to understand.
Friendship is loving  each other more than brothers and sisters and at the end they are soul-sisters.
Friendship is something incredible between you and me.
Friendship is making a bad decision together and then blaming each other after.
Friendship is listening same break-up story for thousands of time without getting annoyed.
Friendship is giving the box of the Five Stars.
Friendship is worried for your friends for no reason.
Friendship is not having a single pic together .
Friendship is  taking friend's most weird photos and then gift the whole scrap book filled with those pics and letters.
Friendship is whispering so gently that others can't understand.
Friendship is reading your mind.
Friendship is accepting you again after a huge fight.
Friendship is remembering a little things about you.
Friendship is making constant mistakes and blaming you for the whole mess like an shameless idiot.
Friendship is making a wish list together and trying to complete each others.
Friendship is exchanging the feelings through letters in the world of E-mail.
Friendship is texting you after every five minutes.
Friendship is making one's birthday so special that one can't hate it again.
Friendship is giving a special pen for giving autograph.
Friendship is understanding the one's love for Harry Potter and watch all the parts just to make one happy.
Friendship is waiting for the Hogwarts's letter and jump all around when you get your first Harry Potter book as a gift.
Friendship is understand one's love for dancing.
Friendship is not going far because of silly reasons.
Friendship is the only relation where every chat is ended with a fighting still together the next day.
Friendship is  always reminds you before sleep that you are damn not alone.
Friendship is a jealousy when you called someone else your best friend in front of me.
Friendship is missing you all the time.
Friendship is morning walk at Victoria alone and find those road which one should want to go before.
Friendship is somewhere an unsent letter in draft folder.
Friendship is staring out of a bus window and thinking about our lost Friendship.
Friendship is trust, care, love in short LIFE.
Friendship is You and Me together or not but Always wanting each other.
Friendship is calling each other M.S and Bheem.

                                                                                                                     -Kemil Ghoghari (M.S)

Its all about a Day - Birthday..!!

            Its all about day.. Birthday..!!!  Birthday  night, birthday cake, birthday dress, last but not the least birthday gifts.

            Birth day which you wait, you enjoy, you like, you love.. You mark b'day first on a new calendar and again after it you wait for the next b'day. I have a weird relationship with time. The day I was born and so I celebrate it, the same day always adds one more whole year in my life. Hahaha you know girls don’t like getting older." As God adds years to your life, may he adds life to  years ."

             I am always the one orthodox girl who don't like b'day celebration but things can change, wind changed. My b'day falls in February. Most romantic and fabulous month of the year. Either it is coz of Valentine  or coz of "vasant". It was named after Latin term "februum" which means "purification" held on 15th of February the full moon night. What a perfect and lovable month to born. God always sends angels in this months. As the birthstone of my month is "Amethyst" aka symbolize piety, humility, spiritual wisdom, maturity and sincerity. That's what I am. Ha ha ha ha . I always want uncommon b'day.. 29th of February. But never tried to make my b'day special. I told you how I am. There is always a valentine  day after my b'day and it seems like my friends are more awaiting for that day instead of my b'day even when we were in schools. Funny me.

            so here is a my story, story of my birthday!! 20 years ago there was a dark night and I was born , haha don't worry nothing like filmy ever happen to me. I hope so that one day something like this ever happen to me. Just like Harry I had never had anything to share before or, indeed, anyone to share it with. It was a nice feeling that time I guess. In my childhood I had never any celebration for my birthday. Usually I was the hater. Some of my school friends come to my home and have a bunch of fun. I just miss those simple days. That time there was no WhatsApp nor Facebook so phone never stop ringing. That was the best feeling I ever had. On birthday we feel like celebrities and the one who calls ,asked the most common question "What’s today's plan? Where is the party?" they too know that there were no parties but still relatives  are relatives!! My sweet little brother who is more exited for the birthday , well especially exited for what will he get in return gift from me. First asks me what I want and gave me the idea like to ask for racing car or toy robot or football for birthday gifts!! Hahaha !!My brother so no doubt on his smartness.

            I had spend every of my birthday watching at least one Harry Potter movie. And asking for that same friendship gift to God for my birthday. Finally I got it on my birthday. Best gift ever. And that special gift  gave me Harry Potter book this time on the birthday. Life can not be more awesome and magical !!

             I want to thank to my those college buddies who surprised me with a shock, my school buddies who tried to lit the candles on "Gulab jamuns " the only sweet I like the most and gave me the most hilarious biopic video. Thanks to my those friends who have guts to solve painful past memories just to make my day special. Thanks to those friends who know my book mania and gave me all those books to increase  my own small library collection.  I want to thank you to all who will remain awake till midnight just to wish me. Well very simple, ordinary and not so dramatic day becomes magically fabulous and awesome birthday. Only coz of you my friends & my Bheemu. Thank you ALWAYS..!!   

                                                                                                                                                     -Kemil Ghoghari

       

A Girl With camera (1)

                                    A baby girl, very sweet and cute and lovely by her eyes. She just wants to see the whole world with her tiny little eyes. That time the whole world mean to her as her lovely mother. As she grows up she is with dolls, in her teenage she is with her bicycle and beauty stuffs. In her youth she is with her dreams. Dreams of becoming something in her life, dreams of marriage with a guy who loves her the most. Dreams are those wishes which she wants to fulfil but she doesn't know that the dreams don't become reality through magic!! Years passed and she will with some grocery bags along with her baby girl and so the history repeats!!!

                                     It is tough enough to describe a life cycle of girl or woman because a girl will have all stages of a woman. She is caring mother, messing sister, lovely wife and a best friend even and forever. Sometimes she will give you happiness and making her life boring!! This article is for those who wants to change her/himself. Sometimes the usual routine makes our life boring in this amazing and surprising world.

                                     So I am Maya, your host for this article will show you the untamed history of enjoyment of beautiful life. I am Maya, A girl with Camera. I had broken the boring life cycle chain with my antidotes camera clicks.

                                     I am a new girl in your city. Actually being a new girl in any city without any familiar background, I tried to capture emotions behind those unknown faces with my camera. Showing colours of their life as well as my B & W photos show their souls!! So that I wanna share my experiences of taking those moments of people for lifetime in my camera, in my latest album A Girl With Camera

                                   One of my best picture is of  girl named Meera. A totally western culture girl in traditional Indian society. Meera, she is bold enough to wear shorts and having a tattoo on her waist. She is with her hair colour listening some English rock music and playing with her shades. Stunning with sporty watch and arrogant little with her attitude in this Indian culture. But our locality will never understand a girl. She is open-minded, bold doesn't mean she is a attention seeker. Maybe it is her way to express her emotions-boldly. Don't assume the character from her photos while she was sexy with her flirty acts. She is adorable because truly in front of society. Because she is having and dreaming the whole world honestly. Taking shapes of her is like savouring a life intensely thousands every of a second. Sometimes camera despite hidden phases of a life that our eyes can't see.

                                     Meera is in every city, she has no name, no face. She is just a real character of yourself whom you imagined so far long time ago. Meera is confident and independent girl to liver her life own way, that time she is also fighting with society for her rights. There are so many girls who wants to become a free bird, wants independent thinking instead of rigidly of parents inherited thinking. Our society never free any girl. No one will fight with you. If you haven't decided yet, you  will never got this chance again. That's true that there is no last chance, it is second last or etc... but this is in philosophy.. And remember that philosophy has two sides like a coin. You are whatever for your parents, friends and for outside the world but deeply inside you want to become like anyone else maybe like Meera.

                                       So that Meera is a real character of your imaginary thinking. For her, fighting with society for her rights is spontaneous theory for her. Because she has an attitude of that bluntness. She is independent and many of you also want independence. That most wanting thing in today's youth.

                                       There is only one way, be an open-up. Don't hesitate to run behind your dreams after all its yours, so only you can catch it. If you want to do something then do that damn!!! You are always awesome remember. People will definitely sarcasm on you... It's their work and your work is just buzz off them. Play with that thing in which you are interested. Play a game like never before, life is a game. You may win or you may loose but the only thing you will get surely is that moments of playing the games. If you don't play how can you reach to that end phase of life that may change your game. For me camera is my sketch-book, an instrument of institution, a gadget of my blunt life cycle and a medicine for my short-tempered nature. Find out something which gives you that peace of life. which with you can stay busy and stay happy. You know what? To show the world your courage or your open nature, is not like you are doing show-off. It is a way to show true feelings, true way.

                                        Like someday you want to dance then beat it!! Dance hard, you want to jump jump in, want to cry then cry like never before nut don't forget to smile back. Every wishes every emotions, every phase of your life just enjoy. Don't make yourself down just for shame or fear. I mostly saw the girls, they are so well behaved and obedient for their family but they also wish the openness. Because of society they can't. I just wanna tell that buzz off those people and do what you want to do. Run and catch your dreams. Fulfil your all wishes. The world is only for you, think like that. Run, jump, rise, cry, laugh even fall but don't stop the journey. If you start the journey once, you will surely reach to the destination. But enjoyment is experiencing the journey not that destination. Forget about starting and ending point, sometimes middle thing says more like middle finger. Don't shame to be bad or dirty, that was also one of the phase of life. Anger, friendship, love, cry, care, all emotions show hard to the world. Don't be so heartless. Make new friends play with them, rust out of them, cry with them and laugh with them as like fall in love once, twice, thrice infinite times after all this is you who want to fall in love with someone, with friend, with nature, with a guy/lady, with your favourite fantasy, with yourself. Yes, love yourself the most, it doesn't mean that you are self-centred person or selfish it means that you are in love with everybody, with everything. If you are hurt ed being like kid. The soul is healed only by being with children or behave like little kiddo!!!So this world is for you, with you be open-up. Share, feel and enjoy little and each things. It takes a lot of courage to show your dreams to someone else. But still catch them and you have to if you love yourself, if you love that person who loves you. Try to be like Meera, fully open, make her your inspiration. But remember one thing whatever you are, you are awesome. You are awesome in each memory awesome in every photo. Be a person with the dreams. Its all yours because you are awesome!!!

-Kemil Ghoghari