Thursday, 16 June 2016

The Empty Classrrom


It's been few days and I already started missing my classroom, the only place which was a canteen when we were tired of gossiping and where we could anything  to kill time,a playground to play wolf, a studio for lots of selfies and park to hangout. I remember the first day of my college and the last bench of that classroom. Used to park our asses there, far from the board, our own cubical to mimic the professor, calculate the sum before the professor did and then argue with them to pass the whole lecture. The fun started from this cubical decreased to sleepy faces when networking concepts were introduced in the class, the concept built the powerful network among us but we never learned the actual concept of classroom network. That classroom became a home for us, everything was perfect and when we used to sit there, specifically in those sometimes dirty benches, there used to be an ass print as a benchmark and a stain on our purani jeans which still reminds us the essence of moist classroom, the sweats (half of the fans weren't working though) and laughter.

Those last benches got full before the first ones and if you're late, you have to sit on the first bench , so much nearer to professor and no sleep! Literally NO SLEEP. But college means Friends and Friends tend to save a place on the last bench. There was  no need to pass through the whole class as the door was right behind the last bench, but if anyone was late , we loved to turn our heads in 180 degree to make fun of those always-late-friends who shouted from no where : "May I come in?" just to attract the attention of whole class and then laughter and giggling for the whole lecture!

The classroom had seen students come and go, with empty bags to bag full of laptops and assignments. A group of students to the couples sitting there hand in hand. The classroom was a seductive bed for afternoon naps during boring lectures, it had kept all the secrets while gossiping about  fellow students. The classroom which always made students occupied in some activity other than studying.

Classroom that had the history of students come and go, share their laughter with walls and tears with benches under the bag. Just few days passed and the batch is gone, few more days and the next generation will come and park their asses in that empty classroom, just few days and these benches will miss those friends and lovers who had sat there and have crafted their names on it. Few days and these benches will miss all those dishes which we had shared with it from wafer to water and from cake to cola!! Few days and these benches will miss the footprint of those vella boys and the gossips that we girls are used to do!! Few days and these benches will miss the sleeping US in boring lecture, our ass prints that we had shared sitting there for hours and hours!
"I'm gonna miss you my cubicle" 

                                                                                            -Kemil Ghoghari

                                                                                                                                   




Monday, 6 June 2016

Unspoken Feelings ..(2)

.. Instrumental songs are playing in my music player, it's so peaceful when you don't actually know the lyrics and just feel the music by it's symphony somehow!
Isn't it great if people start doing that, when they are angry? Just play the instrumental of their soul, no shitty words and gesture!
Just the sound of soul, sound of unspoken words via eyes, music of that point where mind and heart collaborates!

.. She has feelings, which has been crushed by someone. She has heart, which might be broken few times. But she is still around you, with a gentle smile! If she can be stubborn and she can fight then why can't you become SHE ?
All the powers lie within us, I know we call our loved once the inspiration, the power house but at some point of our lives we all have been devastated from those people, but we are here, survived! The magic is always inside us !

.. You think you can always argue that you were busy ? I don't care because if your friend needs you, go and be with her. If you have ignored bunch of miscalls from your mother, go and call her first, talk to her until she believes that you are doing well. If your girlfriend is upset, get some time, go to her and kiss her on her forehead. If your family is going out together, go and join them. If your kids are playing football in the mud, play with them. But before doing all these stuff, get some time for yourself. You like swimming, take a dive. Like climbing, go for mountaineering. Like reading, get some books.
Go for solo trip,
hangout with friends,
watch bunch of movies,
eat a lot until your stomach is full.
Because if you're not happy inside how are you going to make your loved ones happy ?
Don't tell me you are busy, and can't see this !

.. Hey dear, let me tell you something, books and movies out there always show you that one can't fall in love more than once! But it's totally not true ! And believe me it'll be amazing and extraordinary like the first time. You'll feel the Goosebumps again ! It'll give you pain same as before. But that doesn't mean you can't fall in love again. Don't you wanna experience those thousands of butterflies in your tummy when he kisses you first? Don't you wanna blush when he smiles at you? These feelings are countless and always give joy. Whatever lays ahead, just open your heart and follow wherever it leads you. In the meantime, you just live.

..Memories, Scars and Diary!  My favorite threesome. Today is gonna be strange night, because of the scars that has been opened in my diary from long!  I'm scattered over emotions like the scars in my diary, hidden faithfully under the autograph! I believe that scars and wounds can't be healed with love, but when someone hugs you tight, cries with you and kisses you on forehead, scars melt and wounds heal!
Because there was a time when I used to shout on you when you were wrong, now my pen just leaks while writing that in Diary!! Because we all are living in our self written scars!


.. It's been years from now that we were together and promised each other that we will be together no matter what happens. I used to write about you, about us but now I write remembering all those memories we shared. There was time when you were my story, now I write stories to forget you. I have moved on, yet the corner of my heart still wants you. If you see me smiling today you'll know that I smile a lot but that is different than I used to do for you. I crack so many jokes but laugh only on remembering yours. Time changes and so do we. But the smell of your love is still there in my skin, I tried washing it but it never really faded ! It's been years, but You still end up being an inspiration to my writing.

                                                                                             -Kemil Ghoghari

Wednesday, 1 June 2016

Unlocked Treasure..(2)

".. very last time "

Let me remember your smile very last time,
let me kill my love with words very last time!

Walking on your lips very last time,
biting your thoughts, killing the fragrance,
of our love for very last time!

Ride the night very last time,
hide the beneath of it very last time!

You hear that sound? Last time?
My heart is crying for you.. The very last time!

Feel the soft touch of mine very last time,
I'm here, near you for very last time!!


 ".. old love story "


You're my same old love story,
That started from a diary! 

Every page of my life,
Sings a song about gettin' high!

I'm the one who always cry,
Thinking about how hard we try! 

We created the music slow,
Now that sounds high and blow! 

You changed your smile, I'm fine,
Let's have one last glass of wine! 

That way there ended the clashes,
Now our love is in the ashes! 

Now it's last poem with lonely mind,
You find a girl who is Kind!! 

".. miss with You "

The cool breeze, I miss with you,
the stinky smell, I miss with you!!

All those memories , on a bench,
Gentle kiss we did in a French,
Dump the love in a ocean trench!

The cozy smile, I miss with you,
The French kiss, I miss with you.

Diary pages with the scars,
Empty ash tray with cigars,
The song  we made on your  guitar!
Dump the love in empty jars !

The teary eyes, I miss with you.
Singing the song, I miss with you.

I ain't  gonna cry, beside your dreams,
Want the happiness, just one beam,
Dump the pain in empty love streams !

The passion of love, I miss with you,
Sharing the happiness, I miss with you.


                                                                                                                          -Kemil Ghoghari

Sunday, 1 May 2016

Date a Girl who Writes ..!!

Date a girl who writes, and instead of fancy flowers buy her rare books! Dating a girl who reads may create sensation in your mind but to find a girl who writes can make your world magically unbounded by imagination. She might not use your name in her stories but believe me you will end up being the center of inspiration for her writing, depends on how much you mean to her in her life !

For a girl who writes may create two different images in your mind, she can be an avid reader yet manage to write something of her own on those blank pages. She will never deny to fill those yellow pages with her colorful words. If you find a girl carrying her laptop with a cup of coffee, just look at her gracefully, you might fall in love with the designer shadow she has created under her eye bags! She might be unaware of the world, so you might spot her with her old blue jeans and an untucked, unbuttoned shirt! She might have those rough shoes and be totally into the imagination about  Cinderella! She doesn't care what is the outside weather and how much the sun is burning her skin, all she cares is to adjust the right brightness of her laptop!

Be with a girl who writes, You'll know the sense of humor she is carrying with her, she can be a sarcastic bitch and she can be a motherly figure when you need empathy and kindness! She will always put you in joy and surprise with her new story, observe her every word she is choosing for you! She will extend your dreams and give you words when you are half stuck in between a line! In her notebook you'll always find a reserved page about you. She will amuse you with her observation about you, you'll end up achieving all her messages she once sent you.

She'll be all like creating a character from light to dark, from a warrior to philosopher, love to hate and reader to writer. She knows happy ending always takes bit of time in friction as well as in reality. Don't lie to her, she will understand the formation of those words, don't be too frictional, because she is Real!

She won't leave you when you're fucked up with your mind, she understands the human nature more than you do!

She is the creator of those beautiful thoughts you have read once on her blog or in an unfinished article in her laptop. She knows that reality sucks and it's nothing like the story she creates, because while creating the storyline she lives in reality.

Be with her as she will create the memories with you, in her journal at midnight, she can be able to walk miles with you telling all her fantasies and sharing the secrets while holding your hand and whispering gently in your ear.  Buy her books without any special occasions. Sit next to her and tell your stories, she might be interested knowing how your day was! A girl who writes is also the best listener, and a secret holder. After few years you might find a story about you, in her blog or in her books. Write her something beautiful because a girl who writes always fall in love with a person who takes a little effort to write something for her.

She will guide you, tell you the perfect quote on right moment when you need the motivation, even though she is not right beside you, you will find her words in your laptop, in you mail folder or in your heart! You will never lose her, her words always be with you. At least be a friend with a girl who writes, all her tweets might turn out to be about you, she will be all witty with her words, because she knows how to play with words. Never ask about her unfinished article, only she knows that until the very end she is stuck to that unfinished writing, give her time to value your importance, read her writing she has written for you, about you, you'll know how much she values you.

When you come up with the thought : "She is a damn writer" understand you have already fallen in love with her. When she writes about happy story she is joyous , when she is depressed she might end up creating a lonely poem, when her writing shows inspiration, find her with self motivation. She is that bitter with her writing like the first alcohol, she is sweet with her writing gradually like the first hug and she is a bold writer like a passionate kiss. She knows everything, still creates the imaginary world, because she knows how to live with multiple characters in a single story called LIFE..!

                                                  -Kemil Ghoghari (A girl with Camera finding story for her Book !)


Also a girl who codes ..
Check out my two Apps on Google Play Store.

Kptio :  https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.sparrow.kptio&hl=en

Soul Mate Check !! : https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.application.soulmates&hl=en




Thursday, 28 April 2016

#s_he..(4)


61. He was the music,
       She played in her earphones !

62. It's hard to leave at once, first he broke into tears,
        then she laughed on him !

63. He was careful because of her feelings for him, 
       She was rude for not to feel anything !

64. She lost her mind on him, 
       His fault was he lost his heart on her !

65. She was confused, 
       He was the reason !

66. She was a chaos of mind and heart, 
       He was the tornado of roses ! 

67. She laughed to dissolve his tears, 
        He smiled to appreciate her effort !

68. She was very expensive for her smile, 
       He was drunk till he cried !
  
69. She wanted to lose herself in his smile, 
       He was already there to hold her with her tears !

70. She was asleep, 
       He was her dream !

71. He didn't know what calmness is , 
        until he saw her smiling !

72. She was unaware of her happiness, 
       He wanted to be the reason for her smile !

73. He was vulnerable , 
       She was the key to open !

74. She went far away to make him happy, 
       all he wanted was go close to her and hold her hand !

75. She was all set for writing her diary, 
        He came into her thought and she cried !

76. She was the first draft of his book, 
        He denied of publishing that chapter !

77. She was the waves, 
        He was her positive Era !

78. He was counting the starts,
       until he felt the moonlight under her arms !

79. She was music of the Flute, 
       He was the bagpiper kinda guy ! 

80. He was the foreign language for her, 
       She only learned how to say 'I love you' !
                                                                         -Kemil Ghoghari (@tonksgirly (#s_he))


Monday, 21 March 2016

Irrelative Thoughts about Relations



                                    Why are there two sides of any relation? Why am I in any relation? Why freedom always repels me? Either I am here being a daughter or a friend or a sister. These jobs are hard. Heh pretty much than you think. As I don't want to be with any of the person of my life being a candle, I want bursting fire whose flames give scars! A lifetime memory!
                                   
                                  
                                    I'm always stuck between people and the relations with them even if I'm the one who believes in it the least. Still I mess things up. Why even I care for this? All I care is for my little world of happiness! Even if I know that my parents are never going to leave me still I'm afraid of losing them. I want to talk to them. But why I can't? Why they can't?

                                    Why I'm half in relationship with them? I decided to stay away from twitter and English seasons and reading for a while but these thoughts are still coming. Staying  longer than the last. Happening first time . Why?  Just because I told this to someone? To whom? Am I in a good terms with people who care for me? Am I? The fear, the thoughts, the realization and the depression; are these mandatory? Even though I'm not connected to twitter and seasons and books then from where these thoughts are coming into my mind and making me insane to write this?

                                      Is this thinking spontaneous? Or the product of past? Or the byproduct of some supernatural evil thing? But I'm all good, I'm with good people with good terms! One thing I know is,  that these are not the byproducts of over thinking. I am pretty much certain.
                                     Every thing is momentary then why the attraction stays long? Why relationships stay the same and lose the charm after certain life goals? Relationship with not just the person of interest, but with the thoughts, with the nature, with my laptop, with my mind. If emotions can be the instance of time then why they make home in our heart? They suppose to be ugly, naked and hard to bear sometimes, or say brutal but it seems sugar coated with fake accents !

                                     Sometimes I thought relations are there to protect us from our dangerous desires! Protect us so we don't harm ourselves, they are there to care for us when we think world is not responding to our most necessary calls! Relations don't teach us to determine our best priorities, they advise us with significance of life  experience about  how to prioritize. We determine what relations are affirming for us; and the sequence of values we need to pursue to achieve the best of it!

Why this contradiction ?

                                                                                                       -Kemil Ghoghari  (edited by Pooja Mehta )
 

Wednesday, 16 March 2016

#s_he..(3)

41. He was the riddle of her scars,
      She solved him with her smile !

42. She was his 'would be', 
      He was her 'may be' !

43. He was lost in the echo, 
      She was calling him from the cave ! 

44. She was happy seeing him in her dreams, 
       He sat next to her for whole night ! 

45. She was so soft like the first kiss,
      He was so hard like the first kick !

46. She was the rose, 
      He was the Gardner ! 

47. He wanted to dream about her,
      She was asleep for ages ! 

48. With her he was superstar,
       Without her he was surpassed star !

49. She was alone and was bored, 
      He was crowded thinking about her ! 

50.  She is beauty by her heart,
       He watch the sunrise in her eyes !

51.  She always thought, she is losing her beauty,
       For him, she was always spectacular in his eyes !

52. He wanted her to bother him until he dies, 
      She wanted him to love her until she writes !

53. She was the tide in his ocean,
      She came, loved him and went back !

54. She wrote for his existence,
      He died for her tragedy writing !


55. She was the play in the theater, 
      which he was playing with her from ages !

56. She wanted to be in his arms,

      He sent the 'hug' emotion in hike !

57. She was the chilled Martini,

      He was interested in tequila shots !

58. She wrote to express her feelings,

      He was blind to understand the Brail lipi !

59.  She wanted him in his life back, 
       He was in grave waiting for her flowers ! 

60.  She is writing 's_he' but,
       She doesn't know where her 'he' is !

                                                                                    -Kemil Ghoghari (@tonksgirly (#s_he) )